Thoughts from a single person on Valentines

What does it mean to be in love? Is it companionship, relatability with another person, sense of belonging or an inexplicable lust? I’ve never been in love. By definition, love is: ‘a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.’ I don’t think my experiences can be defined by this – Not in the romantic sense,…

Posing behind a phone screen – The future of fashion photography

“Can you bring more light in to your room? Move to the left. Now move to the right. Oh great… you’ve frozen.”  The glamour of bright flashing lights, impressive lenses and enthusiastic crews working together in face-to-face shoots is lost in the world of lockdown, where portrait photographers are having to compose photo-shoots from the…

How chaos and vanity are causing video call anxiety

Jittering audio comes out of my laptop as someone plays music from their speaker, a few friends are dancing, one has their face frozen and a couple of others are attempting to find a comedic Zoom background. They haven’t yet noticed I’ve joined. “How is everyone doing?” I ask as I finally connect my webcam…

Lockdown loneliness and learning to self-love

43 days. Just over 6 weeks. That’s how long I’ve been home, without physical contact with anyone other than my immediate family. I looked at myself in the mirror the other day. Right in the eyes. As I watched my reflection stare back at me, apart from feeling somewhat narcissistic, I realised that was probably the…

The blind truth about migraines

A light turns on and now I see only flickering objects and flashing faces. “Maybe it’ll pass” I tell myself as I look down at my right hand which I can only see half of. “Sometimes it does.” My body tingles. My hands shake. As my peripheral vision blurs for longer than 5 minutes I…