Thoughts from a single person on Valentines

What does it mean to be in love? Is it companionship, relatability with another person, sense of belonging or an inexplicable lust? I’ve never been in love. By definition, love is: ‘a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.’ I don’t think my experiences can be defined by this – Not in the romantic sense,…

How chaos and vanity are causing video call anxiety

Jittering audio comes out of my laptop as someone plays music from their speaker, a few friends are dancing, one has their face frozen and a couple of others are attempting to find a comedic Zoom background. They haven’t yet noticed I’ve joined. “How is everyone doing?” I ask as I finally connect my webcam…

Lockdown loneliness and learning to self-love

43 days. Just over 6 weeks. That’s how long I’ve been home, without physical contact with anyone other than my immediate family. I looked at myself in the mirror the other day. Right in the eyes. As I watched my reflection stare back at me, apart from feeling somewhat narcissistic, I realised that was probably the…

The blind truth about migraines

A light turns on and now I see only flickering objects and flashing faces. “Maybe it’ll pass” I tell myself as I look down at my right hand which I can only see half of. “Sometimes it does.” My body tingles. My hands shake. As my peripheral vision blurs for longer than 5 minutes I…

How university has made me more aware of mental health

Sat in the darkness overlooking a lake, slightly drunk and telling someone their life is worth living. Not something I ever imagined myself doing at the early hour of 4am. More drunk than I, their feelings jet out of their mouth as they’ve never been said before. The reflection of them from the lake; their…

Experience: I overcame my fear of not being good enough

There’s that voice of insecurity inside all of us. We’ve all experienced it: “You’re not good enough. You’re not trying hard enough. You should give up.” I’ve long battled with that voice, both in my work and any hobbies that I’ve had. Once you believe it, it’s hard to overcome. Comparing my competitive ability to…

Experience: Travelling around Venezia

On the very first day of March, I travelled to Italy to visit Venice, one of the areas you will  find on all ‘bucket list’ websites. Renowned for its rugged beauty and outstanding canals, it would be an under exaggeration to say I was fairly excited! Travelling is one of those things that brings out my inner wanderlust,…